I have never missed an Oscars in my life. In addition to being an avid movie lover enjoying the visual storytelling of the silver screen, I love to get lost in the glitz and glamour of that one celebratory night. You can imagine my excitement when Chopard invited us to Elton John’s Oscar viewing party! I’ve pretty much decided the only direction I can go from here is to attend the actual Oscars… but there are many miles of work ahead before that happens.
Los Angeles is certainly a change of pace, especially for this New Yorker. Many times when I’m invited to incredible places, I can’t help but photograph and share these moments in my life, BUT, in LA, it was a totally different experience. Once you get inside events, nobody is on their phone Instagramming, grabbing quick snap shots of the beautiful celebrities going by, or walking around with a DSLR taking candids for the fun of it.
At the Chopard Weinstein party before Oscar night, I found myself in a conversation standing next to Quentin Tarantino with a view of Jennifer Lawrence, Leonardo DiCaprio, Christoph Waltz, and Bradley Cooper…and all I could do was sip my champagne and dream of what I would have captioned the Instagram. Then there was that moment at 3am standing on Leonardo DiCaprio’s balcony in the Hollywood hills and thinking, NOBODY is going to believe me when I tell them because there is no picture to prove it, and it’s me we are talking about! There are always pictures!
Don’t get me wrong, there were photographers there, but there was a specific place and a specific time for photographs. It’s a strange feeling to not be allowed to take my own images, but on the other hand, it felt respectful of people’s privacy in an old fashioned kind of way. Not being able to capture what I was experiencing allowed me to be in the moment and these memories… I don’t need to pull up the images to remember, they are as vivid as if it were yesterday.
I took a lesson from LA – to live in the moment. I need to remind myself: I don’t create to live, I live to create. Perhaps if I put my camera down and remain present, I can find better clarity for when I do decide to work. Maybe just changing that will be my ticket to the big show one day…